Losing weight is HARD. I know now why Weight Watchers has accountability meetings and the such. At first when I started my weight dropped about 15 pounds pretty quickly. My clothes got looser. I got cocky. It was like, oh I’ve got this, I just need to be careful. Then I started having some cheat meals here and there because, well, life is hard without trying to lose weight sometimes. Then my weight started inching back up a little. I’m up 4-5 pounds now.

The worst part is that I’ve lost some weight. I KNOW what I need to do. HOWEVER, how do you work it into your life? That’s the issue I’m running in to. My neighbors have wonderful little parties where they have cheese plates. Sometimes they make HOMEMADE BREAD. How am I supposed to say no to that? So I have some. Then I have some more because… mmm cheese. Then I completely ruin my points for the week with cheese or bread. I just don’t have that “thing” in my head that says to stop eating.

For example. I can make a full pan of chicken nachos. SO GOOD. Probably my favorite food. Likely my pan of chicken nachos will actually feed 2-3 people but I can eat the entire pan. I get full but they just taste so good so I keep eating. Then when I’m done I find myself wishing I could throw it all up because I did NOT mean to do that. One day I finally started counting the chips when I put them on the pan. Knowing what a serving was. It helped. I still ate it all…. but when I was done I didn’t hate myself.

On one hand, I like being self-sufficient. I like no-one really knowing what a failure I am sometimes when it comes to eating. On the other hand I’m considering joining one of the WW groups to have the accountability. It just seems that to get on a scale in front of a bunch of people would be humbling if you were paying to lose weight but not doing it.

Now here’s my other issue. I started working out again and I find that sometimes I’m SUPER hungry for no good reason. I mean, the reason is probably because my body needs fed but I don’t know what to feed it! It wants carbs usually. It wants Honey Nut Cheerios in Almond milk desperately. That’s a lot of point to spend in the purple plan! Also, that doesn’t mean I don’t still want it! Some days I go out and walk 4.5 miles and when I get home, what does my body want? Sugar. Juice. Pop. Honey Nut Cheerios!!!!!!! I’m not sure how to balance the whole changing my eating habits with working out.

I don’t want to be hungry all of the time so I’m trying to use my proteins and snacks to fill in the spaces. I’ve been eating a hard boiled egg around 11 so I can push lunch out to 12. I’m trying to do that anyway but the truth is, around 11:45 I get hungry because it’s “lunch time” so I go make my lunch. I did used to eat at 11 so I’m making progress in trying to move my schedule around. I’m proud of that. One small step for a healthier body I suppose. Then I’ve been eating a piece of fruit or cutting up fruits to eat in the afternoon. When I get home I may eat more fruit or whatever I happen to have on hand. I’m trying to push my dinner out to 6 right now. I want to have less time to snack in the evenings. So if I’m full at 7, I won’t be trying to eat popcorn or cupcakes. Eventually I would like to eat closer to 6:30 but baby steps I think.

I know what you’re thinking. Amy, just set a time and do it. No no my friend. My body isn’t like that. My body says 7:30am is breakfast, 11am is lunch time, 5pm is dinner time and if I have foods laying around, they’re available for eating whenever I think about them. It’s annoying. I think I’m actually a cat. You better believe Peppers is getting her treats and food at the exact times she has gotten them before and then thinks she should get treats at any and all times she has gotten them before. That’s ME. I don’t know how to kick this habit and it’s been a lifelong issue for me honestly.

So I’m leaving you with the goals I have set above: 1) eat lunch at noon, 2) eat dinner around 6, 3) snack less, 4) avoid being like my cat. 😉