3/6/2019
Success Level – 2
Mood – 5

I think I’ll start blogging this whole process because it’s such an up and down fiasco. I’ve begun trying to cut out the negative foods in my life. I have a bunch of inflammation in my body and it’s most-likely being accelerated by all of the sugar I eat and drink regularly. I’m not going to lie to you, I’m trying every day, but so far, in the past 6 days, I’ve succeeded just one day.

This past weekend I thought I needed pizza so I ordered one. The delivery guy and I are friends and wouldn’t ya know it, he brings me a 320 calorie cookie and a 320 calorie brownie with my pizza. I ate about half of the pizza and then I sat looking at the treats. I decided I didn’t want those in my house so I ate them. UGH. I SHOULD have given them to my neighbors or stuck them in the refrigerator for another day when I felt like I deserved a treat but instead I just shoved them in my mouth and then was filled with regret.

Another thing I’m trying to cut out is nachos. I know right? What an odd thing to want to cut out. The problem is self-control and large portion sizes. I love to make them and I make entirely to much at once. I WANT to stop eating them when I’m full but they’re so good I keep munching until I’m absolutely miserable. Ain’t nobody got time for that when they’re 60 lbs over the weight they would like to be.

I went grocery shopping yesterday. I’m running a bit low on funds this week and I was trying to think of something different to eat this week. Well, Monday I had to tell my trainer/nutritionist that I just can’t afford to train right now until I sell a house. She’s been the biggest advocate of me stopping the sugar and nachos and I guess in a fit of disappointment and depression, I bought the ingredients to make my nachos. I went home and made a big ‘ole plate of nachos with chicken, onion, black beans, jalapenos, cheese and tomatoes and just ate my depression away. After I was done, I remembered I had bought some cookie dough and I ate some of that.

UGH. What a set-back. I KNOW I need to just get back on the horse and try again and that’s just what I’m doing today. Re-grouping and trying to be more aware of what I’m eating and planning ahead so I can avoid the sugar. I think it will be a bit easier because I’m alone in the office today without other people around me eating and distracting me from what I’m suppose to be focusing on.